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I also am into really talented/really really bright women.\\\n\\\nApparently, I'm kind of neuro divergent, and have been like that since always, without knowing it. And I believe very strongly, that I will be way more synched up, if someone is kind of similar to that, or compatible with it in some way.\\\n\\\nI never understood what it was, but it turned out to be ADHD. Which is kind of surprising since I'm considered very calm. I got a diagnosis pretty recently, and it was I who initiated it, since I wanted to find out how my brain worked. I haven't had any trouble with school, work, relationships or stuff like that. I have never been able to study, but it worked out without me studying. (Could get the highest grade in some courses at university without studying, without taking notes, and without knowing the subject in advance). For example math courses I would skip the exercise lessons, and learn everything two days before the exam and pass, instead of studying everyday for two months like other people.\\\nGetting good jobs has always been easy as well, and getting high income jobs as well.\\\n\\\nI started a company and has been working with that pretty much only since last December. I figured out, that it was possible to work at 40% and get a full time average engineer salary from that income, and currently, due to deductions and stuff like that, I think I'm getting twice that amount after taxes and stuff, for the next 5 months or something. (But the deductions rely on me doing some music work as well outside of that)\\\n\\\nI have a lot of interests & hobbies, that are either different projects with friends and/or creative stuff. Have been writing music for about 25 years, and played piano for about 30 years. And the first song I wrote and recorded, when I was 15, ended up on TV by accident.\\\n\\\nI'm non-authoritarian left-wing, and can't be with anyone that is center or more right-wing than that, or apolitical. Though I really dislike politics. I avoid eating meat / fish at home (feel sorry for animals). Despite being crazy about eating meat / fish / shellfish. Hypocritically, I'd like someone that is better than me at avoiding it.\\\n\\\nThere is no point in writing more.\\\nExcept that I want to start a family with someone from scratch. I saved up a lot to start a family, the last decade, so I used parts of that to start the company, and have been able to live without any income at all for the last two years.\\\n\\\nI also like / need to exercise a lot, so kind of need someone similar.\\\n\\\n(I could mention my appearance, if that isn't clear from the photos. I look kind of abhorrent, that's not a negative thing to say. I got some regular thinning hair in the front. A lot. Being long haired is accepted now, and being bald is very accepted, the combination is the worst thing you could do, appearance wise. There are probably laws against looking like this in most countries. All, while being more natural than anything, and while being less boring than each, and less predictable. I think I've seen about 4 men in Gothenburg ever that had that combo. I'm very curious as to how people perceive you. Basically, provokingly ugly, will being all natural, without having to resort to artificiality, while examining how people react to you differently, is unresistible. And while following something that would be classic pre-historic men's fashion, which is for some reason the most, or one of the most, controversial looks today. For some weird reason, women in the real world, doesn't seem to care one bit, it is almost the opposite. You get more phone numbers, hit on more, more compliments, get asked out more and get jumped more as far as I can tell. Which makes absolutely no sense.\\\nSo, I'm currently doing some experimental field work.\\\n)\\\n\\\nAt some point I thought that I'm really bad at this dating stuff, so I just thought that I should make it easy and go for women that are really really really good looking until the point that men are afraid of them and start acting strangely around them. Because if someone is normal looking or good looking, they are really approachable.\\\nSo, that stuff worked out, but it turned now that I have hard time behaving like what is expected of me when it comes to dating.\\\nWhen I met girlfriends, and I was/seemed very difficult, impossible or even rejected them, they thought it was really funny and exciting. When I do the same thing otherwise, they get really annoyed with me, think I'm rude or cruel even if I don't mean to. I thought they would really like it since my girlfriends seemed to like it.\\\nEverything that worked out with my girlfriends makes\\\n\\\nAt some point I thought that I'm really bad at this dating stuff (I just thought I'm really horrible at hitting on anyone, though I never really tried, for that reason), so I just thought that I had to go for women that no one hits on, and I just noticed that when women were over the top good looking, men got afraid of them and didn't approach them or they got totally strange around them, so I just thought \\\"I'll take those then\\\", and that worked out.\\\nIt feels kind of strange because it feels like they don't require the same amount of validation and aren't as insecure when it comes to dating. (I don't care about insecurity one way or the other, but I think it's a bit impractical when it comes to dating contexts). When I tried Tinder it was really strange because it felt like a lot of women waited for me to do something. I never experienced anyone do anything like that in dating contexts before. So, that was very confusing. And all the stuff that worked in my favor before suddenly screwed everything up.\"]],\"start1\":0,\"start2\":0,\"length1\":0,\"length2\":6518}]"
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